The day finally arrived. Tarot Diaries: the Fool released Sunday much to my surprise. I had a huge blog planned for Sunday about the jitters and excitement and what it would mean to me for this book to publish but that’s okay, this is much better.
I’ll be honest, when I woke up yesterday morning I felt awful. Between the headache, nausea and dizziness I still had to face a nine hour shift at work. The last thought on my mind was about my book – until I saw it on Amazon. I instantly squeed. I didn’t feel better physically though but my heart swelled with pride.
After a brief excitement and many posts on Facebook and Twitter to start promoting my book, I shut my computer down and put on my work uniform. So much for excitement, right?
Trust me, I’m elated and thrilled that my hard work finally paid off and I sit here now still in disbelief that I wrote that. Here’s the thing that many people don’t realize though.
I still have to work a barely over minimum wage job, nearly 55 hours a week sometimes, and nothing really has changed.
Except now I’m a published author, and that means the world to me.
I got a little frustrated yesterday when someone made a comment: “Well I guess now that you’re a published author, you can quit your job and sit at home and let the big bucks roll in…”
If only that were true.
Many of my fellow authors are in the same boat that I’m in. We work, sometimes excruciatingly long hours, just to make ends meet and yet writing is our safe haven, our journey away from the everyday hustle and bustle of life.
I write because I love writing. I never thought I’d become rich off the things I wrote but to know that others think enough of me to want to read it makes me the happiest girl in the world. It does make me smile as I sit here and type this. However, It honestly motivates me to write more and finish other projects.
I wanted to say thank you, from the bottom of my heart for all the support I’ve received over the past couple of months. The motivation behind me has been strong and you have no idea how much it means to me that so many of you care about my projects. I get super happy when I see someone review my work, or even just retweets or shares a Facebook post of mine.
I wanted to leave you with a snippet of Tarot Diaries: the Fool just so you’ll have an idea of what it’s all about. It’s a journey; one all of us must travel. For me, my journey has led me to writing… where will your journey take you?
The young child sat at his table, bread in hand, dog barking at his feet and wondered where to go from this point. He could stay in his mundane life and live each day knowing that his end was drawing near. However, a huge part of him started to wander, as his mind did.
What else could be out there?
He stared blankly out the window and sighed. He threw the last piece of bread to the dog and stood. His small room closed in on him more and more each day. How could he not want to move on and find out what was beyond the horizon?
He looked to his faithful companion who didn’t offer much advice and sighed.
It would be considered a Fool’s journey, he told himself, but at the same time, the young one wanted more. He craved more.
There wasn’t much left in the small room he shared with his dog and the foolish young one decided it was time to leave. It meant leaving everything behind but if he never left, how would he know his true path?
He found a large square of cloth and filled it with everything he could possibly carry and placed it on a huge stick. He looked to the dog and said, “Let’s go.”
The door to his small, modest room opened to reveal a path. He had no idea where this path would lead him, but he was willing to accept the journey for what it was worth.
A small voice inside his head spoke to him. Dear child, careful of the journey you choose. You are responsible for your own life and it will be difficult to make the decisions that you will have to face. Take heed to those who try to betray you, embrace those who help you and learn what you can from your journey. It will be a long one.
The foolish boy nodded and exited the room on his way to the most amazing journey he could have imagined – life.